My weekend went pretty well, but somehow I just need to re-examine my limits. Dang... I'm not 19 anymore. I don't even know what to say about it either. Last night gave me a whole new insight on myself though. I need control. My mind will always be strong I think in any situation and that's good because it keeps me out of trouble, but that can also be super freaky when I feel my mind is starting to separate from my body. I don't know if that makes any sense, but mind over matter right? I can't just let go... I can't just enjoy. I think this goes for anything in my life. I have to weigh everything out. I'm not a romantic, always a realist.
All this does confuse me a whole lot though. I'm so easy-going. Complicated situations stimulate me. I like a challenge. The challenge of my internal self though, is a constant struggle... don't like that too much, but who does?
Posted by tricia at March 7, 2004 09:19 AM