Tricia's Partial Mutterings

Swing Low

Man, it's been a really rough day. I don't even know why fully. Things at work are getting me down. Today was the first day that the club was open where I used to work so Heidi and I went down there before school to visit. I saw all the kids and hung out with my two favorites. Yah I know, you shouldn't have favorites, but man, I miss them. It makes me really want to go play with the kids again. But deep down I know it wouldn't be the same there. I wouldn't have Megan in there everyday in the homework room exchanging looks across the room. I wouldn't have Heidi and her Fear Factor Friday. I wouldn't even have the snake, since he's mysteriously GONE! It would just be really different and I know I would get bored again. Oh well. But then here at admin things just don't seem any better. It's like all my partners in crime are moving. I take that back, it's not LIKE they are moving, they ARE moving. Stupid growth of the company... so that leaves me, feeling super icky and almost pulling away from them. Yah, smart huh? They are leaving, so I pull AWAY. That never made much sense to me, but I know I do it all the time.

So my stupid lump in my throat is back. I hate this little stress lump, and no, I'm not going to get it checked out by a doctor, because every time I have been to the doctor lately, they look at me like I am nuts with the crap I come up with... Whooping Cough and West Nile... yah... maybe I am nuts, but don't piss me off today, because I think I might break. Ok, I'm going to try to be social and put on a fake happy face and watch them all eat, because I have totally lost any sort of appetite.

So I'm feeling a little better now. I think I am going to leave the office today and go take some pictures. That always makes me feel better. Oh, and I got business cards... that always makes you feel better, and better yet, the first two I handed out were to two of my kids at the clubs. Warm and fuzzy, I miss hugs everyday and kids just wanting to be next to you because they like you. :o)