Two nights this week I ate dinner out and walked away completely unsatisfied. I'm thankful that each time we had gift certificates so my meals for the two evenings combined cost me 8 bucks. That's really not what is bothering me.
I'm afraid that I'm just not satisfied with anything. Folks that knew me back when... did I ever used to get excited? Did I ever look forward to something without a plain and casual attitude towards it? These questions have been going through my head more and more frequently.
Another disappointment, I think we lost our corner bar. Our two favorite bartenders were placed in the middle of jealousy of success and left. Sound familiar? Maybe to some of you, but this situation is a clear example how some people push you to succeed and others are there to hold you back.
Unsatisfied... will I ever find a person to hold my interest? Someone that I find challenging yet not intimidating? Someone that gets me and accepts all my quirks?
Unsatisfied... will I have the drive to move forward with my career and not sit idle and unfulfilled? Move to something that puts passion and excitement into my everyday life? Who knows... I don't get excited about anything...
Unsatisfied... will I ever have a "best friend" that calls me "best friend" too? Someone that I can share everything with. Someone that knows me better than I know myself. One that not only knows what I want, but knows what I need.
Unsatisfied...
Posted by tricia at October 5, 2005 10:40 PM