So I came across two GREAT sites in the past two days. They really brighted my day so I am going to now pass them on to all of you. The first one is courtesy of my dear friend Mary (who is actually on her way to come over right now! yay! I have friends!). Make sure to turn up your speakers for this one!
The second one I found on Tarah's blog. Totally amusing. My furthest distance was 321. Oh yah baby! Make sure you get in a hit that makes him land hand covered in snow. It made me smile. :o)
ENJOY!
Well I had my 8th month hair cut again. I just seem to grow and grow my hair out just so I can chop it off again. This time I cute off just about 6 inches. Woo hoo. It's quite odd going from really long hair to hair right past your sholders. Not used to it yet, but it makes the cutest little pony tail and isn't a pain in the ass to curl if i get that urge or if I'm super bored. By the summer it will be all long again. I swear it grows like an inch a month! So that's my story of the day. Tomorrow I'm going on a field trip to Knott's. I'm excited. I'll have only 6-7 kids with me and they are the older ones (well 4th-7th grade) which should be fun. I hope I don't lose one. Cross your fingers. :o)
I'm really worried at the moment to go back to work. Yuck. I'm in this quasi malicious mood. I might actually take one of the kids' head off if they rub me the wrong way. Don't really know what the hell is up with me... just irritable as hell! Garr... stay out of my path you wretched fools.
Pull me out of this funk!
So my sister and my brother-in-law, Michael, had a party last night to celebrate Michael passing the Hawaiian pharmaceutical boards. It was very nice. The food and drinks were all themed from Aki to pineapple upside down cake and Mai Tais to pina colatas. Everything was so pretty, *tear tear*, including the “camp like” décor. Now I love you both dearly, but I didn’t really seem to fit in. The partygoers were pharmacists, sailors, or pharmacist sailors. Everywhere I turned I was bombarded with talks of drugs or waves. Yay Newport!
It’s a toss up which was more exciting for me… playing virtual ping pong upstairs with my sister who barely had any coordination saying… “I’ve had 4 Mai Tais, hehe, they were strong, hehe” or my adventure home getting stuck on the off ramp of the 405.
Yes, I did a very stupid thing. I ran out of gas. The tow truck guy was very nice though. He came and gave me gas. You think it would be that simple don't you? Nope. It seemed that I was on a bit of an incline and therefore all the gas was bunched up in the corner. He told me just start it up and let out the clutch at the same time. So I obliged. Nothing. So he must have thought I was a silly girl with a stick because he climbed in and tried to do the same thing for about 10 minutes. Nothing. So I actually got towed up the onramp. It was kind of fun because I got to sit in my car and get pulled up the road. (Not that I would recommend this as a nightly adventure or what not). So go ahead and make fun of me… I’ve had the car since September ’98, so it’s not that bad it just happened to me now. Let’s see the Suzuki I ran out of gas on my way to or home from Deanne’s house in Livermore on the off ramp once more. I walked to the gas station. I had to negotiate the use of a gas can too because I didn’t want to buy one. That was back in like ’96. Hmmm… and the Jeep, well that happened on the way back to school with Mags in January ’98. That time I just wasn’t paying attention to the gas OR where we were. They finally found us in the middle of Interstate 5 four and a half hours later.
Boy oh boy do I feel like a kid again! Let's see... this week I have played quite a few mean games of handball, a little bit of everyone's favorite (Frisbee), freeze tag, swung on swings, fought over a ball, played BINGO, had my hair braided, ate at snack time, went to the park, played UNO Rugrats, teamed up with a fourth grader against a 4th grader, a 3rd grader, and a 2nd grader playing SPUD, done homework, went one on one basketball with a 4th grader, and played Trivia Pursuit jr.
Dang... and these kids are competitive too! And do I let them win? Heck no! I wasn't the best handball player when I was a kid, I wasn't very quick or the top of my class either. So this is MY time!
I still remember two summers ago when I would race my units of 4th-6th graders the width of the pool. Sushi would just sit in the lifeguard chair shaking her head as she watched me kick their puny butts even giving them head starts and everything. She would tell me... "Frisbee, you are going to give them low self esteem." I felt bad, so did I let them win? Nope, I just stopped racing them. Oh the joys of power trips.
I swear I'm not a bad person... I don't nail 3rd graders with a dodgeball and brake wrists or anything... no... THAT didn't happen this week either... *cough*jrhighkid*cough*iwasntthestaffincharge*cough* But this is what I learned... the playground is a rough place, and you gotta take it with stride. Like when I mess up at handball I just walk away and get back in line. Some of those kids though... with their blood pressure... it's scary. Also, when you are playig SPUD and they say you got a SP, just go with it... kids are vicious for popsicles. Even though I lost... my 4th grade buddy pulled of the win! :o) And yes, she's my little Maven Jr.
Amazing... absolutely amazing... my sisters, my mom, and I went to see Varekai, Cirque du Soleil tonight... I'll write more about it later, but until then I'm going to go and snuggle in bed and dream about flying people. Night all!
Headed down to Oceanside this afternoon to watch Otter's game and then try to meet up with Zeto and Giraffe. I'm excited if it all works out! I think I'm in trouble though because I've had WAY too much coffee this morning and I'm starting to get the shakes. The drive should be fun. :o) But I did get new tires so I won't be running all over the road like I have been for the past few weeks. Whoops!
Anyone out there want to go out dancing? I think I need to let loose on some dance floor before I totally humiliate myself in let's see... Rite Aid, the tire store, Walmart, the middle of the street, work, or anywhere else!
Well I couldn't take it anymore... I went out and replaced the airfreshener that Crystal stole. I think I must have only been in my car 30 minutes tops in the last 24 hours and it was already driving me nuts! I put the other one in my mom's truck... guess I won't be going anywhere with her in the next month.
CRYSTAL JENKINS YOU ARE A THIEF! I want my air freshener back! The vanilla one makes me a little nauseous... you owe me. I know I have ganked more stuff from you than anyone else... but it seriously makes me ill. The coconut one also makes him feel fast and sexy.
Bleh... the lump is back guys... for those of you that don't know I get a weird stress lump in my throat. Well I call it my stress lump, but I really don't know why I get it. It's that feeling in your throat right before you are going to cry. I guess I am just perpetually choked up. Shitty...
Who knows what I'm stressed about though... it's not like my job is very high pressure. Yuck! Crystal is on her way over to go out to lunch maybe she will cheer me up. But just in case... send me some love!
So I think that I have been doing way too much thinking on "the line" subject lately, but I think I have it finally figured out. I don't want the line to be gone with my kids. Without the line I would miss out on so much. I couldn't be the world's best soccer mom, look at them and call them cute, or actually feel the odd sense of pride when I see them excell and show their talents. Goodness... I can't quite explain it the way I want to. But you know what? I guess that's just between me and them. I don't think I would change a thing. :o) Well, I do want to get to know them all better on a personal level.
Tonight Rocket and I went to Maven's jazz set. Tear, tear... she's so talented. Really, she is. Then we went and got some ice cream and just talked. Very nice. *HUGS* Love you all.
Well Mary is a huge resource for finding deeper understandings of self. So here we go again.
NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Tricia Diane Mathis
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Tricia:
You are an overly sensitive person, often falling into a savior-martyr role. You are very skeptical and have more than your share of bad luck. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life.
Diane:
Your world, good or bad, revolves around your family. You are determined and loyal, and your word is your bond. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You have a need to be up front. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.
Mathis:
You want to be productive and feel useful, and enjoy helping solve problems. You like to be busy and not waste time. You have a need to be up front. You need to learn faith in place of fear. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You try to be prudent. You have good business acumen.
And of course...
NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Frisbee
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Frisbee:
You have an aptitude for dealing with the public. You would do well in entertainment and politics. You feel secure in group endeavors. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You try to be prudent. You have good business acumen. You are a constructive thinker. You have a need for monetary security. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.
Tonight was a good night. I got to see two of my CIT kids from the summer. :o) They are all just so great. The more and more that Rocket and I talk and think about working with them... I think the weirder it might seem. This summer we established a camper/counselor relationship and I am not too sure if that will ever be disolved. It's this relationship that we have only known and it's almost like there is a line somewhere in there where camp life and personal life don't want to cross. Do they really know me? Do I really know them? I think that I know the best parts of them, but do they see the best parts of me? (feedback would be nice here).
I think also a good example is Mary. Hi Mary! :o) We met through work at a professional office and really clicked. Those that really know me out there know that I am a very affectionate person, but I can think of maybe only one time that we have even hugged goodbye or hello, even when it has been WAY too long (again).
I know your environment makes you who and what you are in that state of time, but will you ever get past it and to a new comfort zone? Ah... I have so much more that I could go on and on about... but my thoughts are all jumbled and aren't coming out right. Where the hell am I going?
Getting out of you bubble can really help you see the world a little differently. Look around where I live... within 20 miles of me there is two extremes. On one side there is so much wealth with big houses, fancy cars, and easy living. The other side people are stuggling to stay on top.
Now I don't really want to go into all the political stuff based on this issue, but the social issue really interests me. Take a single person and ask them to look around their own environment and have them describe the life people live. How much can they really say? Look at your own life and describe it. I can't do it with a whole lot of passion, but put me in an environment on an extreme and I could write on it forever. Do you really not know what you are missing until you see it or not know what you have until it's gone?
So my brother in law Michael and my sister are saving up to buy a boat. They promise free rides for life with any donation at all! So here is the link... come on, 2 dollars for free boat rides in Newport on one of these? Who can resist such a fine offer?!
Tonight Rocket and I dropped by the CIT2 holiday get together thingy ma bob. It was such a good time. I don't think I have laughed that hard in so long. There were 11 of them there, which is pretty darn good for 15. The other four of them had personal stuff going on or out of the area. Jabbs even called in to say hi from Hawaii. :o)
Everytime I see my kids, ok so they really aren't kid kids anymore since most of them are bigger than me and are either a junior or a senior in high school, but they give me such a warm feeling inside. Almost giving me validity and worth spending my time doing something fun and making a difference. Not sure how much of an impact that I make with them, but I'm sure there's a tad there. (Right?!)
I couldn't help but think about where they are all going in life and that this would probably be the last time that such a big group of them were all together again. Guess I'm just a sentimental sap. So if any of you are reading... this is to you...
May you always have a friend and an eye patch
Someone there to hold your hand or give you that extra push
A soft ear
A whisper of wisdom
A laugh partner and a partner in crime
This never happened
Love you all for who you are, where we've been, and where you are headed. If you ever need anything hit me up! *HUGS*