Tricia's Partial Mutterings

Prep H

I remembering a few weeks ago I asked my sister Nicole if she had ever tried using Preparation H to cure that bagginess that happens under your eyes. She hadn't. Then a thought came to me... "do you know what hemorrhoids are?" Again I was left with unanswered questions.

Well I had the brilliant idea to google some images... I wish I still had unanswered questions.

Rohnert Park

So I made it up to Rohnert Park and back again safely and ticketless! Yay! It was so amazing to be back up there. Just being in the town alone was, I know this is completely cheesy, but magical. I walked around campus and felt at home again. I remembered old smells, good ones; the Sonoma aroma wasn't out and about. I forgot how people up there on campus walk and just make eye contact with everyone. They don't stare at the ground or pretend to be looking somewhere else. It was just nice. The campus has changed a lot too. It's just growing so much from the time I started there as a freshman. Crazy.

I also spent some time driving around the town and revisiting all my old places I lived. Monkey made the trip too! He really liked how green everything was.

I got to see quite a few people while I was up to which was a little unexpected. I ran into people in restaurants and such, but come on, RoPo isn't that big of a place. Driving home gave me a lot of time to think. As I drove away looking at the rolling green mountains and breathing in the clean air, I couldn't help but wonder if I truly miss being up there or if it was just the past and security calling to me.

When I was up there my biggest responsibility was going to school. Besides that I was getting the "college experience." I was surrounded by my friends. When I was up there I really didn't reminisce about the good old days. I lived in the present. I just enjoyed being up there. Goodness... I don't know. I still have a lot of thinking to do.

Travel Time

Well I got the time off and I am leaving this morning to go up to Sonoma! I'm pretty excited! So if you are in the area up there call me up on my cell phone! Yay! If you don't have my number, check out the links over there, wander on to one of their websites and email one of them, they know how to find me! :o) Wish me luck and safe travels, I think I freaked my mom out by telling her last night I think I am going to die in my car one day. Whoops!

Charm Mania

So you all have heard of the Italian charm bracelets. Well I got one from my aunt for Christmas this year and it has just been sitting and hanging out with one charm on it since then. But I finally got motivated to go and look for more charms. Damn they are expensive! Well until I discovered Ebay.

That place is evil. :o) Not evil evil, but still evil. It can give you such highs and lows it's unbelievable. I'm still trying to win a damn camel, but everytime I get close I lose it. I was trying to get Dopey, but yesterday Jackie, Megan, and I went to Downtown Disney and bought one for three bucks. Yay! We also started Heidi with her own bracelet too for her birthday.

On mine, the blank ones are kinda cool because they are all embedded stars. I gave Heidi, Jackie, and Megan a charm off mine so they can all remember me! And Heidi gave me a purely blank one from hers too. We are so cool. If anyone out there sees a frisbee out there let me know or pick it up for me! Yay!

Porn-verts

Well I'm sure you all thought that porn entry was a little out there. I got a few "what the hell" kind of comments, but I just want to say that I got the most hits ever this weekend from random surffing people! Here are a few of the things people were searching for...

I WANT TO SEE A PICTURE OF DARREN JAMES THE PORN STAR
who is darren james adult film star
porn star cherokee

Scary isn't it? I know porn is the most searched for thing on the internet, but dang... check the stats for a Friday night...

Thurs - 190 hits
Fri - 1206 hits
Sat - 155 hits
Sun - 98 hits

Alex even told me that after they came to my site they started searching for porn in my gallery... man, is it odd that I feel sexy! Hahaha... kidding... or AM I?

Breaking

My dying on the inside right now. I very much want to go back up to Sonoma State and good ole Rohnert Park, but I don't know if I'm going to get the time off. I finally found the perfect weekend to do it and I might have to just stand by and watch it all crumble around me. I feel so nervuous and anxious to get the answer, and I won't know until Monday. If I have to deal with this feeling all weekend, I'm going to break.

Adult Industry

Well today the story came out about Darren James being tested HIV positive.

"Adult-film star Darren James found out Monday that he's tested HIV positive, and almost immediately the Adult Industry Medical Health Care Foundation recommended that all porn production cease for the next two months. The proposal was seconded by Adult Video News, the industry's trade publication."

So here's my Would You Rather Question...

Would you rather watch a porn movie with your parents OR
watch a porn movie starring your parents?

My favorite quote though from porn star Cherokee... "No amount of money is worth your health. We all have to step up and be responsible to each other. Other people don't know what to do with us, so we have to be there for each other."

Skin-tacular

So I've always had sensitive skin. Ever since I was a kid... nothing has changed. I don't use harsh soap, I read labels of stuff... I don't know WHAT possessed me to used scented lotion on my forehead... not such a good idea.

Taxes

Dang man, I think this is the latest I have ever done my taxes before. This is also the first time I did them all by myself... pray for me all.

Shifting

Well I have noticed that when you get older and older your problems get more and more complicated. First it's like... I want that cookie and I'm going to cry if I can't have it. Then it is I want to spend the night at my friend's house. Turns into who I'm going to prom with. Then it can get more sticky, like drugs, sex, and alcohol decisions.

You think that's the hardest stuff in life. But then you have the decisions what to actually do with your life and that seems tough. But then you see your whole life crumbling around you and are stopped in the middle thinking what the hell happened to my perfect family? There's kids and lost love. As you grow up you are supposed to be able to handle your life with grace, but you just get sandstormed with harder and harder winds.

It's hard to watch those you love around you. No matter what stage they are in their lives. Whether it's the losing a family or the losing of yourself, know that you aren't alone...

zeto

Let's play a little game... Is this YOUR house?

So in one of Alex's entries he pointed out that he was playing around with GlobeXplorer's ImageAtlas site. This thing is totally crazy.

So a little background on it from Alex... "Since their a private organization with private satellites, their images reach the public domain MUCH faster than those taken by government satellites. Although they've been around for several years, they came to public prominence during the invasion of Iraq when they, through their partnership with Space Imaging, released several ultra-high resolution images of Baghdad and the surrounding areas."

He says he's been playing around with this thing for years... crazy. Now I know that I'm supposed to have something inside me getting all mad a weirded out about the whole privacy thing, but somehow, I think I just care less. I hope the four of you up there do too! (or else I'm in trouble!) In this information world there is just no hiding. You hear about potential hazards and the losing of privacy, but I think in my case it has only brought me closer to more people. I keep in touch better, I find old friends, and with ease you all can read my thoughts and happenings.

Does this make us a less intimate society? Person to person interaction decreases and the scary internet people sneak into our lives? Well it is so damn hard to become more and more anonymous out there. People have become more responsible for their cyberspace actions. I don't know if I feel like I am immune to the threat of information or secure in the progression of it.

Sleepy

I HATE this daylight savings thing! Waking up when it's still dark completely sucks.

Substance

I've noticed damn... I haven't really written about anything of any substance lately. Now I don't know if this is just a lag in my creativity or a lag in my life.

This weekend I went to Fresno for a youth convention. I think this was the 15th consecutive one I have been to. It went pretty well. Saturday night was my 5 year reunion from my year as a state officer. I think we had about 40 of us show up and out of 54 that's pretty damn good after 5 years. That night a bunch of us went dancing. I can't remember the last time I was just smiling from ear to ear. I looked around and saw the girls that I shared something so special with all around me. They shared the same laughs and the same tears. I sometimes don't think I come off as an emotional sap, but I know I totally am. I can't even explain it. But you know, as Jamie Dawg once told me... life isn't about stated meeting dinners and puffy painted jackets.

The rest of GA sorta was a lag until Jeannine showed up. (there's a good story from GA last year if you are interested, April 16th). She had to tell her general manager she got the shits to leave work, but she got to Fresno, even though it wasn't in a bus! I swear, I didn't think I could be so gullible. Anyway, our new little Service has a really good vibe and I am excited for her. She even lives in Rohnert Park, which is where Sonoma State is... after not being up there for about two years we talked about how the place has changed. I so need to go up and visit, by next year I might not know anyone left at the school I went to school with.

I keep talking to people and saying that it's been way too long. I feel like I'm slowly losing everyone around me. Question is, am I really losing them or are we just moving on. Don't answer that, it's really a rhetorical question. I'm just rambling on and on. I still haven't gotten out this feeling that I'm feeling, but then again, I don't really know how I'm feeling.

April Fools

Well April Fools Day was pretty much a bust. I think the best one I got was by a cute little first grader...

Him - There's a spider on your head!
Me - Really? That's funny because there's one on YOUR head!
Him - AHHHHHHHHHH where?

Oh the excitement. I'm trying to expand my music collection little by little every day. I'm just not very happy with some of the stuff out there at the moment. I've always considered myself one of varied tastes, but somehow I managed to put myself in a rut. I've decided to make a new mixed CD for my trip up to Fresno this weekend. I'm going to name it "Reader's Choice," hence this means I need suggestions of artists, albums, or songs. Anything!